Saturday, September 27, 2008

bad night.

Homesickness is the devil.
Well, not really. It was more that I couldn't deal with the fact that I felt so anti-social because I was homesick.
It made me mad. I never thought I would be so emotional about missing my friends.

Joel, this half thai, half white kid, has become my new "buddy". But, I feel like I'm leading him on. I think he takes my affection the wrong way, as so many people have before. Not to mention the fact that I don't like boys.....He's one of those guys that are very nice to girls because that's all he knows how to be. He takes on a persona that doesn't completely mesh with who he is. But, he's nice. He's genuine.

I began to chip away at UCLA. Maybe it was a defense mechanism to justify the way I felt last night. What's wrong with me? I'm here, my dream is achieved, what's wrong?

I can't handle boy-crazy girls. ugh.
SUBSTANCE, PEOPLE, SUBSTANCE!

I'm going on an adventure to the pier today. I'm done with this superficial shit. Peace.

2 yos.:

Anonymous said...

sounds like some boys from my orientation. dear me.

I'm just chock-full of advice. "join the philosophy club!" haha
but really, it's all up to you. I can try my best to help, but in the end it's not what I can do for you, it's what you can do for yourself.

parting shot: tell the poor guy you like girls better.

Anonymous said...

WOW I'm so cliche.